jesSIe

forgotten?

2005-12-20T23:49:00.000-08:00

random thoughts.

i think i have forgotten sth super impt in my life.
til ytd i relived the experience.

yeah. it was well-deserved.

Tonnes of thanks to yunying. whose lil advice gave me such a big realisation.
u'll always be a better science student than i am. really:)

i actuallie forgot how much i love amp songss/////

the next time u think jessie is trapped in quicksand, give her a lift.

Though yesh. i can do it on my own too.. but it takes a long while ya know.

Inspiring song of the yr. though it doesnt reallie makes sense.
Presenting to you ----- Ocean Avenue.

There's a place off Ocean Avenue
Where I used to sit and talk with you
We were both sixteen and it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night
Staying up all night

There's a place on the corner of Cherry Street
We would walk on the beach in our bare feet
We were both eighteen and it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night
Staying up all night

If I could find you now, things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

There's a piece of you that's here with me
It's everywhere I go, it's everything I see
When I sleep, I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that you're here tonight
That you're here tonight

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

I remember the look in your eyes
When I told you that this was goodbye
You were begging me not tonight
Not here, not now
We're looking up at the same night sky
And keep pretending the sun will not rise
We'll be together for one more night somewhere, somehow

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

so last qns. How r YOU gg to spend these last few days of the year???

-hmmmph---
for me. it's about having new year resolutionss!!!!

cya. love ya. love me.

2005-11-06T13:31:00.000-08:00

Thanx mum.

~

2005-11-01T02:04:00.000-08:00

MY TAGGGboard also spoil. kns kns kns kns..
BUt nvm! Wakaka
i noe HUitingg wanted to tagg this,

:"JESSIE NG PING YI IS THE NICEST GAL LIVING ON EARTH."

i noe i noe. dun worrie. i gt ur msg.

WAkakakakaka.
anyw. I also wanna marry my stalker..
"O , O, O , she's following mee~~"

~

2005-10-30T15:40:00.000-08:00

weelll. today is tthe LAST day of holidays..
My heart sank real hard jus now when i heard some script somewhere. but nvm bout it.
*pukes

anyw. wld like to thank the ppl whom has contributed to my wellbeing thru the acad sem..
dunnoe who to being wif :)

the lucky no1. is Flavia! i reallie wanna thank her for the many many wonderful stuff she did. Thnx for the gudiance thru my studies, n being a gd fren:) (Helllo..our horoscope clashes!) n giving me a hug when i nded it most.. n to trust me. i think im blessed. wo men yao yi qi jia you!

Followed by... AhPek!! hahah, did three BIG BIG projs wif him. REAllie LIke to say a big THANK to u, for wasting ur sun phone calls, for accomodating to my workin-stuyding schedule, for tolerating my incompetency and even allowing me to throw my xiaojie tantram at u.. nex time SLAP me straight away.

then comes Dora!! she's the one i turn to no matter wad. i also dunnoe y. I love Dora. (she's lucky tt im straight) Thnx for studying wif me though Im superr jinx to you laa. LOL. yaojiayou!! and gRace.. i thank u for attempting to study wif me. though it wasnt tt fruitful. BUt still. thnx. i missed u:)

Echia! u've waiting to see ur name horrr. ahaha. well. He's the one who ans ALL my qns willingly. reallie. jessie is a problematic kid. thnx for being helpful, thnx pushing me to study n reassuring tt i dun get run over by some cars. hah. n being cranky wif me almost everyday.. a nice fren.

nex nex. it's ZHIYI. she's my kong ba baoo:) this time round i din get to do any projs wif her :( **hello!! i did 9876431 projs wif her alr in my poly life** But still. i love ZHiyi alot alot. if u believe me. She's the only one who's willing to msg me to tell me silly things (like ron gettin a incorrigible haircut), to ask me to join the others n make me feel wanted when nobody else seemed to care. To teach me STATS (my worst subj ever) and getting hot when i freakin dunnoe a single thing. HAha. too lil time for too many words.. muaccksssss.

b4 i forget. i also wanna thank Siwei n Jon!! For all the fun laughter peace n joy. haha.
siwei: im Truely sorrie for TT accident. DIN mean it( i gt u tolberrone)
n jon: ur hse is BBBIG. a generous guy indeed. i only said" voldka v bitterr" then he went upstairs n opened up a 95 bucks dessert wine. NIce??! (hurry while stocks last.)

Oh oh. wait. also to my new classmates, Jiaying n Irene n Dandan . A nice n fun lot. thnx for being my new frens. alot more to goo.

then we always haf guobin, haobo, zhengjie, yeehyan, shiliang, yingying, ben, tat to add in the pulp. hahhaa

wait. wad a long list. i nd a breather. i haven finish ok. must empahsis tt ORDER is not in preference.

then the BA club. HUiTingg aka wann!! im alr attached to her. So wad do u think? hahah. i used to hate her like anything. realliEEe. She nv fails to msg me gdnites.. n constantly spreading NEWSS to me. jus wanna say tt i know wad u r doing n i truely appreciate it. jessie loves ht.
SC aka bahbah. a fren tt shares ALMost a plight wif me. A fren whose words r most treasured.. A WISE women.. yay~~ then we haf BAhhkwood.. yf:) a l i l n i c e p r e t t i e fren who went to visit me at work. hahha.. ms loveable. muaccckss.. n Hw!! din think ill 4get u huh!!?? haha, a fren tt's willing to listen to me, the fren who noes i pack only at the LAST min.. oops*

yah laa. HOw can i 4get AUntie Ronnie!!! ron ng chong sheng :) this is the friend tt i turn to when i nd advices from a higher form of living.. jkjk. thnxx dude. for being understanding, being true, being analytical, being fun, being slutty.. n being RON.
pardon me everyone. jessie loves Ron. WAkakakaka.
hahah. BUT for the last time, n on MY blOGGG somemore!!
WE R ONLY GD FRENS . getit.
(well u seee. this issue is hindering my progress wif others u noee. lalala~~)

WAit. one more thing. b4 i progress. pls dun think im sucking up to these ppl horr. they r my gd frens alrite. GET IT. aiya. too many names laa. i think ive to cut short abit here n there. paiseh.

nex. Ah Tan. jason tan how kiat. Mr blurrr n wols n funnie n gentleman n kind n... too many things to say. He's my nex target horr. im sorrie zy. i let u down.
Jap!! my bestest partner for the beast. the one nv fails to laugh AT me- kns. Wq! the chaobeng.. nice lil fren whose dance is cmi. Oops* n Yichao! ha. this one i gt nth to say. only noe how to suan me. *ahbiiish*

then comes Jieying , ms HALILOoYAAAAA- one whom i also gt nth else to say. she jus rock from head to toe. Been in the same grp as her from MY foc. sorrie to say but i simply love to bully her. lalala. Im blessed to haf such a special fren :)

THERE IS SIMPLY TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MANY TO MENTION.
paiseh paiseh. must summarise alr.

eping gal:) who exploit silly dance moves wif me!! cute lil fren. Qianni!!! haha. i wont 4get u too. u're the one who i secretly admire.. dragonss 4va. u're a gd fren too. Queen Shujuan: who is always so fierce (who share similiar evilness as me) Steve n Tianxin: ~~~ nice fun ppl who do alot. Justin: ht's husband, dun think i shld elaborate. n ED n Jas n Dine - Instructorss roxXXx.

AND MY FRIDAY GANG>>>>>> w/o them im as gd as dead. im serious. Tooo bad they were all born XX. if not, i wld hav made aw, yy, phyllis,quek my bfs.

To the rest of the ppl. paiseh laa . it's not tt i forget u ppl. it's jus tt i wanna eat my lunch. Im v v v hungry. HAHAHAHA.

lastly. i thank all who enter my life n make me who i am today.. THanK you!! -smiles-
i swear this is the longest post i've ever made.
*ppheeeeewwww.

2005-10-29T00:45:00.000-07:00

- This song is for all -

Fumbling his confidence
And wondering why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he's bent for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly, fly

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

Dreaming about Providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe we've been livin with our eyes half open
Maybe we're bent and broken, broken

We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life.

today is not too good a friday.

take care my frens. cant bear to see anythin happen to anyone of u.
and i mean it. i love u all.

i think i finally noe how Shanna felt a few yrs ago. i wonder how she's doing.

i like this

2005-10-25T16:19:00.000-07:00

I dunnoe why i jus like this.

Welcome to the plane
tWelcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next
What happens next

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to moveI dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
Tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened before.

ll

2005-10-20T02:24:00.000-07:00

im blogging agn
hello

my stoopid toe hurts,
ALOT.

ok laaa. jessie is a strong gal.
lala

mawai is fun. i enjoyed it.
gd job mh n yf!!!

yea~~~~
000000000
"we are family. all my sisters brothers n me!"
i still love all of u, alot...
h
it's been a long while since i lose my voice

echia says i sound like im gg under some sex shange.
*ahbiish*

"if you are from life science, we will love u soo,
BUt if you are from TARA, we'll love u even more!!'
ur Sgls love u all.
*muuacks*

-smiles-

waiting for CAsh to be born.
i love my sis.
i love all whom contribute to my upbringing.

anyw. gd job ah pek. Well done!! more to go!!
it's gd to see u guys agn. kinda miss u all.

of coz, my fridays r getting meaningless.
i NEEEEEEEED my weekly dose. of aw, yy, phyllis n quek
"it's truely a lifelong gratitude.."
phone spoil. cant receive msgs, cant type as well
haiiixxx.

music has no language, no boundaries n no barriers of any kind
it's my only source of medicine

:P

2005-09-28T00:40:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone.

Welcome InjessTion monthly!!
Many thanks to all the current supporters the monthly edition of INjeSstion.

In this month's issue :

1. Cover: the confessions of a teenage drama queen
2. Featured Story: My Long Lost Friends
3. Fashion: Bohemian Attack!!!!!
4. 10 great MUST buys
5. Freebies-freebies-freebies-freebies

Ok. im lame. i dunnoe how to begin my stupid entry, see. Im creative neh?!
Wakakaka.

Hhhmmmm. first things first. Im worried bout my results. ya-da. But there's nuthin i can do bout it so... lala. Blergh. Holidays so far?! nuthin much, nuthin much at all. But no worries, im satisfied wif working and working and working.. and no time for anythhing else.
Only have some more time nex month for catching up. People book me pls.

anyw. i forgot to wish yh and via a good YEP trip to palawan.

to via: pls rmb my plwn man. thanx.
to yh: rmb to get a plwn gal k. But pls dun forgot Zhiyi. wakakkaka.

wait. hold on. MMMMmmm. was reading the above para, saw the word "nex" and misunderstood it for sumthin lala. Waakkakaka. OOOps.

oh. waDeva.

lalalala. . .
anyw. there's a list of stuff i NEEEEEEEEEEd to say:

These are the things/ppl i MISSSS:

aw's hse
phyllis' songs
sylvia's books
yy's good night msgs

the rumily poks
tt fish
tt fencer
tt pianst
tt climber
tt trombone player
tt waiter
tt subway crew
tt vet. yes tt VET.
those study poks.
those banana poks

lame zhiyi (rep)
lame lame ht
lame lame lame sc
lame lame lame lame ppl. . . . too many to mention.
oh of course. how can i forget. yours faithfully auntie ronnie.

and these: xy, esther, siewhui, charissa, jiaz, ms, claire,vee etc etc.

and.. .. ...
playing mahjong
playing pool
sentosa
stayovers
crapping
shopping
acting drunk and crazy on the streets..
crescent's u
band
music
eating gd fd
studying. wakaaka
cutting hair
flying objects in the air.

oh last one. getting HIgh..

Ok done.. .. .
i think i blogged enuf.

OOh oooh... .. i noe i forgot sumthin.
i forgot to ask all my fellow darlings and friends to take care of themselves.

PLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLS.
im beggin u ppl to take good care of urself, stay happy and true! really..
love ya guys. really.

anythin also can tell me k?! though i cant help. BUT STILL.

and those preparing A's!!!!!
dun give up k!!!!!!
jiayou jiayou jiayou. Ms polytechnic here loves you guys too. dun be dishearted if u failed ur physics, pure maths or econs.. .. just noe tt u've done ur best k.

triple As are just there.

HAo le. bye bye bye. Sayonara desu!!!!
MUUUUAAccccccckkks.

coming up next issue:
My sis's wedding DAY!
the great MAwai camp
the Meeting upS.
the lala land account.

OH waiT!!!!!! can i say sumthin?! i must say this, reallie... ... ...
mm mm.
i *piak* sumone's chlid while working. i mean the hand la. mm mm .
lalaalala. Blerggh.

2005-08-05T03:46:00.000-07:00

I want Nanami tooo.
so cute!!!!

baby elephant.

talking gibberi

im watching ah lang on tv at 344am.

wad am i doing??!

CHIKA BOOOOMMMM.

2005-08-05T02:02:00.000-07:00

Jia you ba everyone.
including myself :)

im never good wif words.
but it really matters

i need my friends to be well n happy.
pls stay strong.

it doesnt matter if u're far away, right here beside me or pending to go.
you r all my frens.

:) i will help if i can.

i haf alot more to say. but i dunnoe where to begin.
things are happening, but i cant seemed to salvage wad little tt is left.
it cant be undone.
im not as gd as the front that i put up wif.
i also nd directions, i also nd help.
im always liddat. i dun want to be seen begging for attention.
if u're reading this, pls treat it as u didnt. i'll be the OTHER me soon.

2005-08-01T09:33:00.000-07:00

You Are Banana Pocky

Your attitude: fun and lighthearted
Unique and unforgettable
You are cutie everyone falls for

What Flavor Pocky Are You?

2005-07-25T08:47:00.000-07:00

zi gan duo luo.

NOOOOooooo.

2005-07-24T08:45:00.000-07:00

i dun want chicken meat alr la.. really lor..
am i i tt superficial?!!
Vakakaka.

Haix. Just get me a manequin la.
it's easier.

i feel so redundant.
i am only a friend.
i am only an aquintance.

STAY FOCUSED, PLS JESSIE>
wake up.
PIAK.

eh.

2005-07-22T11:32:00.000-07:00

no more stress. Yea~~

FOR NOW.

Must rush Projects nex weeks!!!! eeeeks.

OBjectives for upcoming MOnth:
Prevent Ramily.
Stop eating.

eh.

Look at the following:

Dora: sweeping and mopping

Zhiyi: Ang moh

HUiting: small eyed, Mark chay

Me: chicken meat and omega

pls keep a lookout.
thnx..

AND

i dont mean it.
sorrie sorrie.
Vakakakaka

2005-07-21T01:54:00.000-07:00

this is last time/

im really v v tired.

despite everything, it all still went back to square one.

really.

THE PICTURE NOW WILL LOOK BETTER WITHOUT ME.
i dun think the problem lies wif me anymore.

IT'S DIFFICULT TO MAKE EVRYONE HAPPY.
i have tried so hard already

IT'S SO HARD TO GIVE UP RITE NOW
But i guess have to. i really had to.
I CANT CONT.

perhaps i have forgotten the words of comfort . but i really meant well. i know, i must have looked non-chalent all the while, but i hope for the best all along.

hey gal(yes u!!!) If u r reading this, i just wanna tell u tt i truly admire u for the courage u possess. Unlike wad u said, wad u did was correct. It will end all misery slowly, but of course, painfully. SO dun reproach urself anymore OK? :) it's just a pity tt stuff HAVE to happen. PLs take care my fren. i'll be ard :)

AND via. im worried for u la. pls pls pls pls pls pls take care. u're a person of little words, so i dunnoe wad's exactly gg on but i hope everything is fine for you. If there is anything i can help, i will. :)

and HEY u. stop gg ard calling others(not me la) BAbY. It grosses every mankind living on this planet. Spare some thoughts for others. PLS. J U S T G O A W A Y . and it's just how funnie some ppl can sms and reply to their own msg.

VAAAKAKAKAKAKA. L- O - L

EEEHHHHH!!!!!!

restriction endonucleases

AAaaaaaaaRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrGggggggHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

pok

2005-07-16T23:28:00.000-07:00

really.

REaaaaaaaalllllllyy.

i shld stop quarrelling with security guards and librarians.

it's not doing me any good.

was in foul mood yesterday.. but am ok by night time.

but.

nvm.

NEEEDDDDD to study.

i miss everyone.

i miss gls.

i miss my ahjek, ahsoh, siss, bro, dashao, nephew and niece.

i miss Aw, YY, phyllis, quek.

i miss my class.

i miss the same good old ppl , yes u noe who u r.

i miss the beast.

ehh..
hello ms angmoh, if u reallly dislike us so much. u dun have to be a hypocrite and be nice to me. Reaally, DIDNT i tell u im one of them?

put it this way la, i din noe u hate us so much, tt i foolishly befriend you, since u r like alone in the class or sumthin.

well thnx for tt comment.
now u can happily Scram off.

did i mention tt ur labwork is just so brillant? so so so brilliant since u r doing it for the second time?

oh mayb not.

You're beautiful

james blunt.

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,'Cause I've got a plan.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,And I don't think that I'll see her again,

we shared a moment that will last till the end.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

me me..

2005-07-15T01:31:00.000-07:00

my heart goes sha la la la, sha la la in the morning....

haha.. listening to mrs chua's band play a medley. dam-dam-dammm dam dam lala~~ hah.. so nice!! i miss cgssb!! haha.. whhhheeeaaiirrhh.

i have so many things in mind to blog.

well.. i shall begin wif.. i quarrelled wif my brother immediately when i step inside the house today. HAiz.. he never fails to piss me off, seriously, everytime.. sometimes i really hate him. he was infesting the house with his germssss..

As we all know, im very much a Biatttch when i explode. Reeeaaally, im super vicious and revengeful, so i went #%$%^&^(%!!!! and then i forced him to sit down and talk to him. YOu know wad he did?? he KIcked my chair and it flewww!! WTHHH!!!! wad kinda attitude man!! *^&^%@.

luckily. i kept my calm.

and then i talk to him.. NICELY( reeeaaaallyyyy) . and Then he started screaming at me.... Wwwwaahh!!!!!!!!!!! i wanted so much to SLAP his face!!

but i din. i kept my cool.

and i heard him.
Some stuff i never hear before, some stuff that i always ask from him but he nv speaks of. His opinions.

and i hurt him.
somewhere along the way, i lost him. I overlooked too much.. neglected and forgotten too much. A man's pride.

when we both stop screaming, silent fall.
Realisation took it all.

i wanted to apologise so much. but eventually, i din. Certain things are better to be left unsaid. i guess we both had more than enough for today.

he's busy cleaning and revamping his room now, on his own accord.
erm.. me? blogging away so tt he might catch a gilmpse sometime.

he he. evil me.

Study week and im not doing much. reeeaalllyy. Bang BAng i shot you down, bang baang..
Why isnt my life so fulfiled like Penny's?

BUt wait.

Is Penny someone i inspire to be?

Ans: No, because there are certain stuff that she gave up that are too impt to me. MEntally i dun think i can take it.

well.. i think everyone inspires to be different, to be extraordinary, to make a name for one self.
BUt i like being ordinary. A plain good old me is well enough.

well.
im ordinary and extraordinary.
lalaal~~

Perhaps if the qns is phrase differently like..

"Is tt diploma( along wif those other awards ) worthwhile to slave three yrs of ur life?"
then i might just agree to a YES.

BUt in real life, i strongly believe that people achieve more if we are more exposed to more stuff. BOOKS and txt seriously wont bring u tt far isnt it..
yet. of course it's impt to get the basics right.

yeppy.
so i betta hurry back to my imm aft this post.

*somehow, my fingers r somewad crossed for some reason.*

my next discussion.
wad do u usually do on buses?? slp?? ha.. i do tt all the time, a nice gd nap..

BUt.
recently ive changed quite abit.
SOme silly world issues came arcoss my mind a few times alr. I clnt stop thinking bout all those. Columbia Cocaine Farm, Mother earth, Juagars, spiders.

YOu know there is always two sides to the story?
really. Even TT Dubai has his gd side.

siggghhhsss. im getting more and more immune to shocks.

will blog agn!!

mm.

2005-07-09T09:24:00.000-07:00

sooooo many things happened. as usual..

i think it's high time to get my butt down to work .

time to forget.
time to remember.
time to stay focus.
time to reignite passion
time to make changes
time to move on
time to relieve
time for rebirth
time to do new things

time to cherish

time to be Me.

lala.

2005-06-24T03:50:00.000-07:00

Ok.. i have gone back into my little shell and went on hiding all these while.
time to come OUt of tt puny thing.

wellwell.. Back On Track. i THink!! yeppy.

It juSt seemed to me that nowadays, ppl ard me aint happie anymore. and i cant seem to induce them to be happy either..

one will nv be truely happie if all ard u is sadness.

So i remembered SOMEONE once told me..

"I dun think u're a weakling.. it's just tt under some circumstances you Just HaVE to be strong. i dunnoe what you are going thru becuz im not u, but really, i know it's a hard time for you.

when we feel lost, weak and mentally strained, we'll always think tt the world is NOt wif us, it's against us.

So we Caved in, frantically try to look for the best type of protection. We stumbled and we come back, but sometimes, a real hard one comes along and make u really wanna give up, and give in to wadeva crap that is laid in front of u.

BUt No. PLease know that u are not alone. Surely there are ppl all ard.. all willing to give u a helping hand and lift u up from all these rubbish.

so if u feel like u are unwell, sicked, tired,drained and are suffering from emotional hurdles, we are always here.

we may not be a great help.

BUt we're there. Always there. "

As a friend.. i really wish to see ppl ard me smiling from their hearts.
ONly thru this way.. I can be HAppy.

so u are reminded.
im here.
********************************

Perhaps sOmetimes,we as humans, are too blinded by all the troubles that are surrounding us.. all we see is US, Ourselves. Im included.

Take a while to think about this. The problems tt u are encountering now, are indeed killing you.. you are emotionally numbed and everything ard you is falling apart..

but how bout the children in africa or cambodia? they dun even have the rights to think about how they feel inside..

they dont even have food to eat. They search rubbish dumps for their breakfast, lunch and dinner EVERYDAY.
they even resort to sniffing glue to remove the feeeling of hunger.
OR the cambodia kids?
Every step they take out of the house is a DEATh THreaT. They dun even haf the freedom to play in open fields. And aft the tsunami attack, it became worst. They dun even know where the hell the landmines haf gone to.

and we?
laptops, tvs, branded clothings.. everything.
we shld count ourselves v v lucky...

Really.

******************************

okok.. on a lighter note.
JUs wanna tell U PPL that i really really enjoyed myself today AND, i really thank all of YOU for going.

it really made my day:)

I miss you ALL so so much.
*muuuaaaacccksss*

and to the frens that i seldom see nowadays. U're NOT forgotten. u ppl are dearly missed. Though now wad i can afford is merely a friendly msg.. i want to stay connected still. lala~

and you. my FRiday peeps.
U ARE STILL MY LUV!!!!
no one can steal this from me.

and Lisa:
Im alright already. ALive and kicking.. Dun shocked me wif the msges and calls from melbourne again. i KNOW how ex it is. and i know u're still there.
and i Really thank yyou for them.
luv ya.
CYA SOON!!!! 7th JULY!!!!

and LASTly.

HAPPIE BIrthDAy SC!!!!!!!
*piss- must rmb wad i wish u on the phone hor hor!!!*

Ok. NItes everone.

2005-06-04T02:54:00.000-07:00

we are so fragile.

at the end of the day,

wad is left of a life.

Is barely some white masses of bones.

isnt it disheartening?

tt place draws LIFE out from ur soul.

making you lose every sense of joy.

and Beyond the outlook of Serenity,

there lives a raging fire within.

UNMASKED.

Y weep?
y cry?
y shout for him?

when he's no longer there to hear you?

i noe sum may say that im crude.
But i will have to say this.

I care more for the living than the dead.
if u really love sumone this much.

Love him to the fullest when he's alive.

Cherish them when they are there.

when i was there by his deathbed, i cried.
THe oxygen mask, the beeping from the PCG , and the gasping for air jus shook me.
seeing anyone liddat will make you start tearing.

BUt,

what's so amzing is tt certain ppl outside the ward was making jokes, laughing and disussing how the Ghosts will bring him away.

and this was wad i hear.

"i dun think we can go home early today."
"no lor. i wanna go home early and slp."
~1am.

waiting to see him go.

thou im not close to him, but i think the least we can do is to respect.

if i happen to go too,
dun weep.
forgo all the procedures.
let me fall back in the sea.

lala~

2005-06-02T01:50:00.000-07:00

ok now i reckoned that NO one will read this blog anymore.. been abandoned and fforgotten la.. hahah so poor thing..

so i decided to come in and take a look...
haix...

So this is wad happened for the period of time
mmm...

stress.
Stress
and more stress.
then it came Joy.
and fun.
and laughter
and Bonds,
bonds n more bonds

gls are the best!
i luv you to bits and pieces!
*muuaccks*

sun
sand
wind

and peace.
and the known new and old faces.
a good feeling
a happy one

so familiar,
BUt yet so raw.

i thwarted at some intents
and winched
and doubted

so stuck.
so queasy.

ALL or more others things came rolling in.
some pricks.
some bricks.

headed right down at me.
so painful.
and it went all the way thru.

like london bridge.
i thought i was falling down.

but No..

i-a-m-h-a-p-p-y
ppl all ard concerning bout me.
thanx.
jus for being there.

so i shld stand strong.

because
pricks jus bleed
and bricks wun kill.

and i not a weakling.

so here i am agn .
im alrite alrdy.
i guess
i hope.

the road is rocky
and long.

but i will be fine :)
lala~

wif u ppl wif me.

ACt one scene ONe -
"by giving behoveful liberty unto thine eyes, forget to think of ay. And now ere, at thy good heart's oppression... ... ... ..."

ok

2005-04-21T12:50:00.000-07:00

Im ok!!!!!!

results are out. lala~~
ok lor... nuthin much anyw.. whahah..

still wanna slap zhiyi's face!!!
*Piak piak pIak*

haahah..
still recuperating from trial camp..
meaning im slping like nobody'd business!!!

hahah.
i rocked!
lalala~~

oh oh.. my target is no longer blangadesh le ppl!!!
got new new target: Colin Comm

yep that's him.
lalala~~

mm

2005-04-21T00:47:00.000-07:00

helllo hello.....
mmmmmmm....
i thought of closing down this blog.. since i seriously dun have much interest in blogging..
haix.

BUt.
i dun want leh.. i think i still nd a place for me to vent my anger sumtimes.. haha.. so.. perhaps it means that when im not blogging equals to im happy??!! EH? ^^lll

MMmmmm.. Soooo many things happened!!. blame it on myself for not blogging.. so now.. i dunnoe where to start from!! whahaha! ok i shall try backtracking....

today's training -
YEAH!! great to see us all back and alive! we r the yandao chiobu yandao chiobu Cant b stop!!!! and bombarding others!! Shhhh... so childish. whahah.. anyw, i think i finally noe why i stayed and remained in GLs after all the hardship and e social probs ... i finally managed to see it.

I enjoy shouting and screaming and hooting and jumping and being rawdy and ...
NOt being scolded!!!! ta-DA!! that's it!

Trial camp-
ARGGHHHH!!! i'm so pissed off!!! i am grouped wif all these ppl!! yucks.
1) zhiyi
2) simon
3) adrain (omg pui!!)
4) Japheth
5) Huiting
6) jeradine
7) SC
8) yichao
9) hongwei
10) stevenson
11) ah tan
12) Justin
13) sheryl
14) jieying
15) aaron

they topped the the PUI list!
they affected me so much so that i am left speechless.
CRIES**
these ppl are totallly......
mailto:$%$%&@^*^!&amp;^*7^^$%$!@#%^**^%$

of course. They are just... SOOOoooo LOVELY!!!!

ha. im really glad tt i was given the chance to know them betta. Mmm. Teh-si all the way~~ and not forgetting peepx from teh-o, teh-peng! the agls and sgls and lgl!! whaha.. u guys are great.. Ha. guess i shld just spare the details.. since im like.. as naggy as mahathir!! *Runs*** Oops.

i enjoyed myself alot.
i love gls~

Oh oh.. and Welfare Comm!! yesh yesh. Jiayou k!! ^^
Long live Foc.

Class Chalet-
yepyep.. three days of pure fun, laughter, peace and joy wif my lovely f03s!! yesh.. u ppl are such a great bunch!! MUACKKSSs..
We
Slack,
slack,
story tellings,
life stories,
rubbish stories,
adcademic stories
walked,
xboxed,
daidied,
slept,
play vball,
get hit,
Ate fruits,
and more fruits
and hogged the toilet!!!

YEa~~~
WHahahaahah!
though, there was some uneventful stuffs.. but nonetheless i enjoyed myself pretty much! and omg the Pyjamas!!!!! Diaoz~~~

Pork chop.
WHeeeeaaaiirrhh.

f03 -
[ zhiyi,dora,via,grace,yy,shiliang, ahpek,chia,zhengjie,yeehyan,ben,siwei,jon,tat,guobin,haobo]
RooooooCccks.

AMb camp -

eh. fun fun. teo xu - bollirella!! angeline the prince!! and ron, shyam, serene and jess as miscellanous dancers!!! Whahha.. G1 Zaid and G2 Bryan were soooo entertaining!!!and of course the other performing groups wif enlightening quotes of the week:

-Pppriiiiiyaaannnng-
[heartbreaks!]

and club Bananas!!!! and geek club!! and not forgetting the group of peepx that worked overnight for e ppt presentation!!!
and of course!!!

the graduating seniors!! i'll miss them lots.. ^^
and to the new als... all the way ppl!! Muax!

lala~

DnD -
Ehh. i think i have forgotten like ALMOST everything le. BUt it was fun and was quite an eye-opener for me!! Oh and it was a chance for me to look at all the HUnks in formal wear! OOps. i just revealed my ultimate motive. nvm.. whahaha.

and the wonderful experience of having to stand SMILING like ms spax for dunnoe-how-long holding a fish bowl wif alll the lucky draw stubx inside.

and Us - the subcomm [Tianxin, juan, fiona, sheryl,zhiyi,me,alvin,royston,yichao,pang]!!!! Xiaofei n joyce! and da main comm peepx. hahha.. Ooh oh and mahathir! and yiting and a few more of the yr threes that i noe.. woooooo... it's a bit scary though to see ppl graduating!!! hahahha.. All the best!! ^^

Ohoh.. on a side note. just let me wish all my graduating seniors a great future ahead of them all!!! [Ashley aka Wanjun, Sunil, joyce and chris aka prettie boy]

and my FRiday gang.
pls dun worrie so much k guys. u'll all pull thru!! hang in there!
i still L-O-V-E u all the most.

and cgssb!
Kudos to u ppl!! MUacccckx

and thanx a Zilllon Billions to those who made it a pt to send me bday wishes!! thnx thnx ^^

and Ahpek!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! guess i'll be missing his oldness.

okie dokie.
i think i have a lot more to say.. but im reminded tt i have to wake up at 545am tmr. so.
BUAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!
lala~~

hihi

2005-04-16T02:21:00.000-07:00

upon request.
haha.

i have SO much to say, but so little time...
so.. i supposed i shld just go and slp now.. Camp tmr!! Mmmmm.

OOOOOoooohh!! i forgot sumthin.

CGSSB IS STILL A GOLD BAND
yesh!! im seriously happie, and proud of u ppl!
YaYYy!!

and rmb this at heart..

Et Bientot le Meilleur

i love u guys always
*muacks*

haix

2005-04-04T23:26:00.000-07:00

wellwell.. decided to blog.. since i got like nuthin to do. Whahah..

no no.. actuallie im gonna be soooo bz very soon...
no more free time this whole week..
and nex whole week.

haix.

my book reading plan has been disrupted.

haix.
Had two meetings today and they sorta lasted for e entire day.
Boo.

then i headed to taka wif ms nice.. to fetch her $100 altered pants..
muahaha..

haix.. still have to handwash this bucketful of clothes.

When can i finish my All-American Girl??!!

Haix..

see see

2005-04-04T04:02:00.000-07:00

Dance the night away by karchan85
Name
What you Look like
The Music	Anime OST

Quiz created with MemeGen!

whahaha

2005-04-04T03:43:00.000-07:00

hello! im back. wellwell.. im blogging for the sake of those missing me!! muahahah.
Mmmmm.. so LOOooooonnngg nv blog.. also dunnoe why to start from. [start by removing the cobbed-web, whaha]

wellwell..
Exams are over !!! Finally!! YEA~~~

yes i noe u are saying im HOW slow and retard. But still.. i dun care.. i NEEd to rejoice!!!!!
lalalalala~~

anyw.. loads of things happened on april 1st..

Physio paper in the morn. Due to the lack of slp the day b4 [guess u noe y] .. i felt the table spinning in the middle of the paper!!... and NEARLY knocked out. bleahx.
went home and get sumthin. and went cine agn.
WHeeaaiiirrrrHHh... and they took neoprint w/o me.. and siwei left le. whheeeaaairrhh.
But the good ppl of 03 [ namely zhiyi, via, dora, ahpek] decided to be nice and took a neoprint with me afterall!! yea~~ Muuuaacckkxxx~
Ate ice-cream at the dunnoe where.. u noe the part of cine on the second floor.. nex to world of sports??!! ya. there there. and wanted to sing kbox but... time is not rite.
then headed to HMV.. then to wheelock then to taka then to bugis.. wif the TT old group of ppl. And yes, agn.
watched "the wedding date". Wasted my precious time and money.. eeeeew.
went home and Zzzzz..

Surprisingly, this is the first yr no one played any prank on me.. whhaha. . see!! this is wad happens when u are unpopular!! yea~~ EH?? hhaha. nvm me.. not in a good mental state now when it's 33o in the morn..

Guess wad did i do for the last weekend???!! quick quick...

u wont get it correct.. trust me..

wanna noe??!!

i read two and a half books.

Yesh!!!!!!! B-O-O-K-S. books. lalalaa~~

and im SOOOO enjoying myself.. IM SERIOUS.

REallie. that's not sarcasm. im not kidding!! hhaha.. it's been more than half a year since i read a decent book la.

And months since i just LAZED ard at home.. watching wadeva rubbish showing on tv.. lalalala~~~

and i still have a bagful of books to read.. Whahahaha!! Bleahx.

gtg and read.

bye!

wow..

2005-03-28T23:08:00.000-08:00

okok.. just in time..

HApPY BirthDAy AWwww!!!

the big 18 to you..

Mmuuuuuaaaacckksss**

mm. 9 more hrs. bleahx.

2005-03-27T14:07:00.000-08:00

Just got soooo *beep*-ing pissed off by this particular classmate.

u ask me a qns, and i answered.

and u doubt me.

nvm. it's alrite to doubt me. My ans may not be rite, yes.

BUT YOU Ought To be More POlite, you asShoLE.

and wad do i get in the end?

a bunch of insults and criticism questioning my intelligence and personailty.

i dun mind sharing info and learning things tgt..
But this is definitly not things work alrite.
Not when u think im obliged to.

2005-03-24T22:15:00.000-08:00

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh

i made a super long post, and stupid blogger got screwed up!!!

study week....

2005-03-19T02:02:00.000-08:00

ok as promised.. whahah.. this is sumthin that i found... just find it abit interesting....

well..
im a mouse!!! haha..

still amused by e PJs gals.

Birthdays: (Look below for your characteristics)

January 01 - 09 ~ Dog

January 10 - 24 ~ Mouse

January 25 - 31 ~ Lion

February 01 - 05 ~ Cat

February 06 - 14 ~ Dove

February 15 - 21 ~ Turtle

February 22 - 28 ~ Panther

March 01 - 12 ~ Monkey

March 13 - 15 ~ Lion

March 16 - 23 ~ Mouse

March 24 - 31 ~ Cat

April 01 - 03 ~ Dog

April 04 - 14 ~ Panther

April 15 - 26 ~ Mouse

April 27 - 30 ~ Turtle

May 01 - 13 ~ Monkey

May 14 - 21 ~ Dove

May 22 - 31 ~ Lion

June 01 - 03 ~ Mouse

June 04 - 14 ~ Turtle

June 15 - 20 ~ Dog

June 21 - 24 ~ Monkey

June 25 - 30 ~ Cat

July 01 - 09 ~ Mouse

July 10 - 15 ~ Dog

July 16 - 26 ~ Dove

July 27 - 31 ~ Cat

August 01 - 15 ~ Monkey

August 16 - 25 ~ Mouse

August 26 - 31 ~ Turtle

September 01 - 14 ~ Dove

September 15 - 27 ~ Cat

September 28 - 30 ~ Dog

October 01 - 15 ~ Monkey

October 16 - 27 ~ Turtle

October 28 - 31 ~ Panther

November 01 - 16 ~ Lion

November 17 - 30 ~ Cat

December 01 - 16 ~ Dog

December 17 - 25 ~ Monkey

December 26 - 31 ~ Dove

If you are a Dog: A very loyal and sweet person.Your loyalty can never be doubted. You are quite honest and sincere when it comes to your attitude towards working. You are a very simple person, indeed. Absolutely hassle free, humble and down-to-earth!! That explains the reason why your friends cling on to you! You have a good taste for clothes. If your wardrobe is not updated with what is trendy, you sure are depressed. Popular and easy-going. You have a little group of dignified friends,all of them being quality-personified.

If you are a Mouse: Always up to some sort of a mischief! The mischievous gleam in your eyes is what makes you so cute and attractive to everyone. You are an extremely fun-to-be-with kind of person. No wonder, people seek for your company and look forward to include you for all get-togethers. However, you are sensitive, which is a drawback. People need to select their words while talking to you. If someone tries to fiddle around and play with words while dealing with you, it is enough to invite your wrath. God bless the person then!

If you are a Lion: Quite contradictory to your name, you are a peace loving person. You best try to avoid a situation wherein you are required to fight. An outdoor person, you dislike sitting at one placefor a long duration. You are a born leader, and have it in you how to tactfully derive work from people. You love being loved, and when you receive your share of limelight from someone, you are all theirs!!!!Well, well... hence some people could even take an advantage, flatter you to the maximum and get their work done. So be careful.....

If you are a Cat: An extremely lovable, adorable person, sometimes shy,with a passion for quick wit. At times, you prefer quietness. You love exploring various things and going into depth of each thing. Under normal circumstances you're cool, when given a reason to, you are like a volcano waiting to erupt. You're a fashion bird. Peoplelook forward to you as an icon associated with fashion. Basically, you mingle along freely but don't like talking much to strangers. People feel very easy in your company. You observe care in choosing your friends.

If you are a Turtle: You are near to perfect and nice at heart.The examples of your kindness are always circulated in groups of people.You, too, love peace. You wouldn't like to retaliate even to a person who is in the wrong. You are loved due to this. You do not wish to talk behind one's back. People love the way you always treat them. You can give, give and give love, and the best part is that you do not expect it back in return.You are generous enough.Seeing things in a practical light is what remains the best trait of you guys.

If you are a Dove: You symbolize a very happy-go-lucky approach in life.Whatever the surroundings may be, grim or cheerful, you remain unaffected.In fact, you spread cheer wherever you go. You are the leader of your group of friends and good at consoling people in their times of need. You dislike hypocrisy and tend to shirk away from hypocrites. They can never be in your good books, no matter what. You are very methodical and organized in your work. No amount of mess, hence, can ever encompass you. Beware, it is easy for you to fall in love....

If you are a Panther: You are mysterious. You are someone who can handle pressure with ease, and can handle any atmosphere without going berserk.You can be mean at times, and love to gossip with your selected group.Very prim and proper. You like all situations and things to be in the way you desire, which, sometimes is not possible. As a result, you may lose out in some relationships. But otherwise, you love to help people out from difficult and tight spots when they really need you.

If you are a Monkey: Very impatient and hyper!!! You want things to be done as quick as possible. At heart, you are quite simple and love if you are the center of attraction. That way, you people areunique. You would like to keep yourself safe from all the angles. Shall your name be dragged or featured in any sort of a controversy, you then go all panicky. Therefore, you take your precautions from the very beginning. When you foresee anything wrong, your sixth sense is what saves you from falling in traps. Quite a money minded bunch you people are...

BAck

2005-03-16T22:33:00.000-08:00

hello hello;)
hahah. i feel much betta after a short rest, guess i ranted too much just now.. so i edited a little Whahaha...

wheeeee.. we celebrated e.chia & jon's birthday in cell bio tutorial jus now.. which is like.. 8 days in advance.. wellwell.. had fun eating BlackForest cake and mercy chocolates!! haha..
then they made us say some reflections thingy..
haiyo!! and that music co-ordinator, JUst had to play that kinda sad sad song..

Ok fine. I admit.
i cried.

i tried my best alrdy!!! i mean wad's there to cry bout.. we can still hang out as a class :) Share lab experiences and the inside jokes/gossips rite??!!
BUT then..
all thanx to that stoopid da ben zhu!!! when she said "cant bully jessie alrdy.." haix. And my useless hormones disregard my axons/neurons/hypothalamus and caused a reflex action. the lucky hormones got penetrated into the nulceus of my tear glands and..

Muahaha.
i love everyone.

wheeeeeeee~~

haix

2005-03-16T15:11:00.000-08:00

just had ITA presentation..

i dunnoe wad to say actuallie.
Guess i did the most that i could do.

The time that each individual spent to do up the entire project differs..
it ranges from a day to a month..

But the product of everyone's differ slightly.

and mine seemed inferior.
BUt i spent quite a deal of time doing, i think.
i even asked my frens from last sem for help.
and yes..
i dun have the ever-soooooooooOooo-important-and-essential ORDER FORM.

BUt all in all, im just glad that everything is finished and done with.

haix.

dun you just HATE it when people poks their noses into ur project.
and I WASNT TALKING TO YOU.
So surprise that u can hear me from where you sat.
and thanks a million for Speeding down to look at my dumb-looking project.
n asking "how to do this and that?"
and if there is extra points if you do this and that.

i dunnnoe, seriously.
BUT

This is my project, mind you.

i know im com illiterate.
n dun you jus feel relieve when urs is better??
and yes. I meant that PARTICULAR you.

Ooooohh Wad a great piece of news!!
i failed my second ita test.

WOooowwwwww..

im dying from..

SUFFOCATION,

HUNGER,

and

Idiotic results that reflects my stupidity.

~~away~

2005-03-14T23:42:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST BROTHER!!!!!!
*maaaaaacccckkkkss*

*ugly colour selected by my bro*

finally.. you are 16 alrdy!! must be guai guai k..
jiejie sayang!! *strokes***

and to Rus tooo!!!
haha...

and happie belated birthday to ALvin too.. hah.. just found out..

and...

HAppy Birthday to Xiao Yu!!!
in advance!! 15th March!!

and..

haPPy birthday to Albert Enstein too!!

he was too born on the 14th march!!
*thou he died sooo long ago*

ok. i blogged. bye.

cont'd taking my breather

detached

2005-03-05T02:23:00.000-08:00

i just realised how detached i am to the rest of the world.

Seems like i've forgo-ed too many things in the pursuit of the others

forgotten too much.

were u right?
That i "dun care anyway"?

sumtimes i wonder..

is it me?
or the world?
that made me confined myself in this little space?

Maybe i should take a breather :)

2005-03-03T00:58:00.000-08:00

wheee..

Happy Birthday to Lisa!!!!!!!!!

and flavia too!! ;)

well.. waa test and cats presentation in the morn. haha.. just glad that everything is over :) nuthin much can be said, it's over anyw..

Oh ya. let me first talk bout ytd!! haha. Gl training!! games organised by my group... i think it's quite ok la. haha.. had lotsa fun running ard wif my group!! haha.. torture them tremendously by making them do silly stuff... haha.. but reallie must thank the whole lot of u guys.. thanx for all the co-operation.. hah.. anyw.. must thank my fellow grp 6 members too.. for enduring me and my nosense!! haha.. good job done. yea

Back to today!! so after all lessons, i headed staight home.. took a 174 wif ahTat!! that egg tart, also cannot eat wan.. haha.. waste my time la.. haha. fell alseep once i reached home. Super tired. maggie said i look.. tired.

Then woke up at 4.15pm!! rushed down to tanjong pagar and met yy for dinner!!! talk our way thru til SAJC band concert begin.. hahah.. was quite glad that i get to see some of yy's current classmates in person though!! Then met loads of familar ppl, i shall list- janice, yoke, alecia, jade , grace, annie, shuyi, yuchen, serping, eunice and a few of the percussionists whose names ive forgotten.. Oops.

and the current SA band peeps - Joanne, shukmeng, madeline, Lilian - im sooooo glad tt u guys continued with ur music journey.

Bleahz. and saw sum peepx that i dun wanna see too.

Lots of flashbacks, memories, thinking and regrets came along when the familar tunes were heard.

Lots of "if-only" sentences came into my mind...

nvm jess.. Let bygones be bygones. Set ur little dreams aside for the time being. the day shall come, as long as the passion stays :)

the good days..

haiz

2005-03-02T11:05:00.000-08:00

Sore Loser!!!!!!!!!

haiz.

all about IT

2005-03-02T03:00:00.000-08:00

hi there!!! im blogging with my eyelids half-dropped!! the time now is 3am.. woooo...
haha.. y??!! wellwell, tt's bcoz i spent like.. 1.5 hrs doing up a picture for ita.. ahah!! funnie??!! haha.. i noe what u're thinking.. i cant believe it either. haix.i suppose i found a little more interest in IT in the last 1.5 hrs..

Howver, all in all.. IT still sucks in my context.
BUt, im gonna put in a little more effort in my IT stuff.. so.. if all STILL fails, then i've got nuthin to say.

at least i've tried.

*yawns.

wowwww...

2005-03-01T23:03:00.000-08:00

wheeee.. im just here to congrats Lisa on her o'levels results!!! proud of her. And of course to all my other juniors too!! hhahha.. u guys will now move on.. to another stage of ur life.. isnt it jus soooo exciting??!!

haha.. it's been a year already!!! isnt it like.. so fast??! haha. time files..

"cherish your everyday!!!!"

jessie the great

2005-02-28T00:27:00.000-08:00

hello hello!!
just realise there's NO test tmr!!! hah.. so im rejoicing over this issue.. hahah!!!
wheee..

BUt of course. it's only for the time being. i can almost forsee myself struggling in front of my laptop, *pui-ing my way thru as i try to do up SOMETHING for ita and itp later. yucks.

jessie is a BIG loser in IT.

wheeeeeee........ & *pushes that thought away!!*

Anyw,just realised tt i haven say anything bout last friday!! haha. Friday's always the best day of the week!!!! shall just bring out the highlights!!

ate the delicious chocolates wif flavia in the morn, brought by zhiyi!!* muacks*
cell bio lect! wired chromatids make pretty hair bands... *OOops
rush down to city hall!! wheeeeeeee... sees aw, yy, and quek!! and aw's hair got HACKEd!! poor thing!! sees gwen and jean toooo.. haha. .
rushes to bbq@tgi!!!! FUnFunfunfunfunfunfunfunfun.. jessie the"Biong" breaks free!!! and lots lots more... haha..

ok!! i've summarise! Ta-Dda!!! haha.. but there was reallie a lot of fun on fri.. and lotsa of other things too..

jessie loves FRIDay.

I was born on Good Friday, btw.

haiz

2005-02-27T13:54:00.000-08:00

Im in sch now.. wif Travis facing me.. dunnoe wad to do cox our CATs group ppl is not here yet!!!!!!!!!

haiz. Cats is totally a stooopid module that i haven got a clue why the hell i am FORced to take.
BOOOO. Cats sucks too.
eeeeeeeewwww.

Y are they not here yet!!!! i wanna go home early!!! tmr got so many tests!! still haven study!!

i must summon MuggerJessie out!

me??!

2005-02-26T22:14:00.000-08:00

Your World (Part One): What is your world made of? [girls]
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meaningful words

2005-02-26T02:10:00.000-08:00

If there was ever a time to dare, to make a difference, to embark on something worth doing, it is now.

Not for any grand cause, necessarily, but for something that tugs at your heart, something that is your aspiration, something that is your dream.You owe it to yourself to make your days here count.

Have fun.

Dig deep.

Stretch.

Dream big.

Know, though, that things worth doing seldom come easy.There will be good days. And there will bad days.There will be times when you want to turn around, pack it up and call it quits.

Those times tell you that you are pushing yourself, that you are not afraid to learn by trying.

Persist;

Because with an idea, determination, and the right tools, you can do great things.

Let your instincts, your intellect, and your heart guide you.

Trust;

Believe in the incredible power of the human mind.Of doing something that makes a difference,

Of working hard,

Of laughing and hoping,

Of lazy afternoons,

Of lasting friends,

Of all the things that will cross your path this year.

The start of something new brings the hope of something great.

Anything is possible.

There is only one you.

And you will pass this way only once.

2005-02-23T14:29:00.000-08:00

This IS SHIT!

im so gonna flunk this stoopid IT thingy. Thanx to all.

IT SUCKS.

*pui*

pain pain

2005-02-21T08:10:00.000-08:00

haiz.. jessie has turned into a temperamental freak. Pms/ms or wadeva, you name it.

Started the day badly wif OBc prac! Eeeeww. i jus cant do prac for peanuts. Kept on getting cocked up results and everything.. just like wad i did for ipc. [sighz]

IM SO CURSED.
then it came obc tutorial... the usual noisy and unproductive lesson! haha. and usually, i wld just add on to the noise!!! BUT, today i just felt .......... dunnoe, a sudden gush of ding-dong feelings, that wanted me to stay away. ANd so i did.

then we hurried off to prepare tt meiosis thingy.*bomb.BOmb.bOMb.BOMB.[sighz]
weeee.. finally over..

Delcared: I'LL NEVER TOUCH THOSE DARN BALLOONS EVER AGAIN.yep. NO more. after being bombarded for like two weeks!!!! NO MORE!!!

then it was physio.
i have no comments.

Now having dinner, and the house is filled with relatives!!! AARRrrgghh.[ Jessie, try smiling harder. -_-]

and Thanx peepx. For tolerarting my nonsense, for coming over and ask if im ok. Thanx so much. ^^

"the fine line between the real and unreal."

baby

2005-02-21T00:43:00.000-08:00

My mummy is finally back from malaysia!!!! WHhhheeee.. and that means.. no more hunger pangs!! hahha.. i miss mummy!!

anyway, my aunt had just given birth to baby!! it's a good thing issit ? *smiles* but baby is premature, only bout 6 months plus plus old.. he's not really stable rite now. According to mum, she say the baby's v small.. and depends on the oxygen supply cox he's lungs aint well developed yet. Mum says i shouldnt go and visit, cox i MAY jus start weeping.

So here i am.. WISHING THE BABY BEST OF EVRYTHING! JIAYOU BABY!!! live well and strong, big and tall!! drink more milk k??!! i'll help u sterilise ur bottles here.. ^_^

praying hard for you.
*muacks*

LuuuuuRRRVvveeeesss lots,
Pingping ah-yi.

wheeeeeeeee

2005-02-20T14:39:00.000-08:00

hello hello!! as promised, this is my proper BLOGging. Mmm.. supposed to do it yesterday.. but i wasnt at home. Whahaha.

starting from yesterday, which was saturday! yea~~~

Was supposed to go SA funfair wif phyllis, quek and aw to visit yy!! HOwevvverrrr, we suddenly realised tt phyllis has bowling, aw and peaky has to study for terms, leaving jessie ALONE. So in the end, i stayed at home for the entire afternoon, slacking away at home! hah..
*poor yy!!! whining away in SA.. but she understands la. hahah..

Then i get myself ready for The Queks OH at ard 630pm!! waited at the bus stop for tt stooopid 99!!! for 25 whole mins!!! In the end i was too late to meet the rest at je mrt, so i went to find her house on my own...
Guess wad?! haha.. the rest couldnt find her house! and they took a cab there.. haha.. i was the first to reach, whahaha.. then we begin our explorations...........................

1) rock sugars on display
2) the queks = alcoholics
3) the BIG ironing room
4) 3 yr-old-fungus-infested-nian gao
5) cobbed-web cups!!!!!

and lots more!!! hahah.. fun fun.. had great time talking! munching on chips! gulping on coke! eating pizza! laughing! and ang-pao taking!!! WHEEeeeee...
But soon, we had to leave! Sobz.. So the 10 of us left the House of Queks... haha.. PEace at last!

And i went Aw's house!! (to Bai Nian at the wee hrs!) hahahaa.. and cause a whole lot of disturbance in her studies of Physics! Whahaa!! but in the end, i decieded to be nice and settled myself down wif the children's bible!! haha.. it's a nice book, wif nice short stories and nice illstrations.. AND i finished it! Whaha.. and YOU!!!! copy me...

------end of saturday------

Friday!! it's another WHhhheeeee day. hahhah.. the jeedz went out tgt after lect!! ate at pastamania( but i din eat la) took neoprints and played at arcade!! haha yea~~ FUN FUN FUN.
ha.. i was a little hyper during lecture though, thanx to bacon!!! Dunnoe y she kept singing that umbrellla song! hah.. self-entertained. ha

ok. that's all for now. gtg eat lunch!! buaiz!!

flashback

2005-02-18T23:21:00.000-08:00

hello hello.. jessie is finally back to blog!! alive and kicking.. i shalnt let little little setbacks destroy me!! BBOOO~~~~ will be back tmr. now... ZZZzzzzzzz le.

-back-

2005-02-17T00:50:00.000-08:00

MMmmm.. just changed my blogskin because my mood has gotten a little betta :)

*thanx to the peepx.

will blog properly when i have time yah??!!
cya. going to slp.

[been late whole week! dunnoe wad's wif me. ]
Buaiz~

2005-02-14T23:55:00.000-08:00

Just some time ago, i was in je, meeting the usual people, eating sushi, udons, ramen, and soba. Received a very pretty orange rose from aw [thanx!], i mean i hasnt receive any flowers since i left band la and that was very very long ago. Phyllis just melt my heart when she handled over her gif for me[us]. Im really touched. You dunnoe how much i felt, really. A glass bottle, wif hearty(handpasted)deco on the outside, and stars, sand and rice grains filled inside. "jessie" were written on the grains.

and she did it only for us. Sacrificing her sleep and everything. Thanx phyllis. Thanx for making me feel belonged. Thanx for rmbing tt it's V day and it's a day for all the loved ones.

i LOve you guys. seriously.

But
Im sorry.

i wldnt like to spoil it for me as well. but it just crashed.
everything just flashed.
yes, i mean everything,
everyone.
im trying.

i cant go on.

2005-02-10T01:04:00.000-08:00

Your label is the Nice girl/guy. You tend to care
for others over yourself. However, many people
appreciate your caring side and would rather
stick by you than hurt you. But, there is a
downside. Some tend to abuse your kindness and
take advantage of you. You always try to see
the good in everyone and try not to hate.
Also, you have sharp insight and a great
personality. Calm, serene, and understanding,
you make a worthy friend and a valuble ally to
people in need. Don't change your sweet
nature, your constant being-there can save a
life.

I suggest your go into a field that
centers around working with others such as a
doctor, baby-sitter, psychologist, lifeguard,
or Teacher. If none of these occupations
interest you, it is okay then. I am sure that
there are plenty of oppertunities out there for
you.

What type of teenager are you?
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Your inner soul is content with the way it is. In
general you are a very sweet, caring person!
You love to kick back and hang out with your
friends, but you also enjoy time by yourself to
read a book and catch up on your studies. You
love the wildlife and you can always seem to
make the day better. Your lover is the luckiest
man in the world because people like you are
rare to come across. You love life but always
still have your head in reality.

What Is Your Inner Soul Trying To Say? (With Pics, See All Results!)
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mmm

2005-02-07T22:10:00.000-08:00

Bboooooooo~~

tmr i'll need to chose between fish or plant. fish or plant? ?!!??AArrgghh.
reasons for fish: it's lively, therefore it's more like me.
reasons for plant: i've always wanted to be a plant. REaallllyy.. i mean u SHLD have heard b4.
So???! im still undecided. Help.
oh.

i would certainly miss the class.

Those great times, those sobs and laughters
Those lame jokes, those sharings and givings.
With people, the loved and hatred.
With scandals, the boys and girls.
Eaten- sushi, mocktail and pizza
Eaten- bento, deserts and be-na-na
ha. 1f03.
thanx for e moments in c3.
stay united.
stay connected.
with LURVES,
mmuuuaaccks*

aaaaaahhhh...

Haix. see la.. u ppl keep saying bout spilting and everything. CNY coming lor. MUst be happy!!! hahha.. BUt.. my chinses new year are usually quite saddening as well. Relatives + cousins + manjong + pokercards + screamings + rantings. NOt my type of thing .

--------------------------------------------------------
Yesterday, i visited a place of misery.
Those faces, those eyes, staring out of the glass window.
So i stood there waiting.
Til then.

yet,
i still experienced the pain that was gone thru.
The noise.
The sadness.
A few times, i felt the tears coming,
but i swallowed
For i need to stand strong.
Stronger,
by a million times.
jus like you
some 9 years before.

today, ive grown.
and i remembered those times.
tt i once thought they'll nv come back,
i thought... the tears wont flow.
But i was wrong.
--------------------------------------------------------

i know.
some wounds are meant to be unspoken.
but locking them up
only causes more harm.

mutant

2005-02-05T03:17:00.000-08:00

Ok.. common tests are like finally over!!!! yea~~
though Obc is a sure screwed-up.. *haixxx.. bleahx.

wellwell, for the past 2 week.. ive been like.. studying studying studying.. OK la abit exaggerated. BUt stil, i seriously STUDIED. haha.. but i still cant do OBC la.. Tian arh. im MUTATing.... Since when jessie studies??!! when? you tell me when??!!

The world is changing.

That day i watched this super slow and worldly film on Hallmark (plainsong??!!) it's a very plain and country-ly film.. seriously.. i also dunnoe y i felt so much for it.. U've gt to watch it urself ;) And i wondered, if i happen to watch it last yr.. i'll probably fall asleep, or change channel upon seeing TT slowness.. the world is changing..

and on that very day's afternoon .. the tv was switched to MTV asia.. and the mtv playing was e "i like that i like that ... wooohhuuwoohuuooooooo.. i like that blah blah" song.. So i din really paid alot of attention, cox it's quite crappish rite??!! then... my mum from behind said,"Oh.. it's by Chingy hor?" and i went.....

HUH??!!! Tian arh .. my MUM noes the Singer!!! and i dun. I DUN. wad's happening???!!! The world is changing.

"Everbody's changing and i dont feel the same."

hello hello

2005-02-03T21:01:00.000-08:00

haha.. taking a little little break from studying!

so there you go! a new skin!!!! hahahah..
sooooo sweeeeet rite??!! jus like me! [dun deny]

ok. i gtg.. study study!

mm

2005-02-03T16:15:00.000-08:00

I have NO motivation to study. Help~~~~~~~~

You Are 19 Years Old

19

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

haha.. see.. im 19 at heart.. wooo...

mugger..

2005-01-29T01:29:00.000-08:00

expecting new members in the muggers' club tmr. yea~~

haix.
im becuming another lib res. [OOoops]
How come obc soooo hard to study 1??!!
Phyllis was shocked by me! by the fact tt i din know anythin! die die.

people i met in je library: minghui,may,jieling,travis,jitra + zhiyi, phyllis, quek.

see!! the library rox too..

*yawns. ZZZZzzzzz.
gd nite!!

haha.. i din slp la.. went to do this..

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others.
Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel.
You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations.
A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict.

You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

and this....

Your Element Is Water

A bit of a contradiction, you can seem both lighthearted
and serious. That's because you're good at going with the flow - but you also
are deep. Highly intuitive, you tune in to people's emotions and moods easily.
You are able to tap into deep emotional connections and connect with others.
You prefer a smooth, harmonious life - but you can navigate your way around
waves. You have a knack for getting people to get along and making life a little
more peaceful.

What's Your Element?

Study..

2005-01-28T03:37:00.000-08:00

Just realised i haven seriously blog for the longest time.. wellwell.. tt's becoz i have NO time at all!! im serous! projects, quizes, tests ,OH, common test!! diaoz. hahha.soo.. super long post ahead. (see.. i actuallie bothered to take sum time off my studying k??} anyw,

Appealing to all :)
JOIN THE MUGGERS'CLUB!!!
all interested pls contact meee!

Of course. im NOt heading the club.. that'll be sooooo unlike me!! im just a mere MEMBER.haha... for the past few days, ive been busy memorising/studying/reading/filping the notes and txtbks in lib, sch etc.. with my ever lovely study partners/distracters [*Ooops]no la.. kidding.. ;P hahhah.. not sure if anythinn went in, but at least i tried rite??!! yea~~

let me slowly summarise my week......

** special thanx to DORA AND AHPEK. *Muuuacccks* hahha.. for all the pushing and talking while i struggle my way thru to finish my 2.4km run yesterday! mmm. ok la.. nex time i jog more k?! must jian fei la. haha. yea~~

**CNY shopping!! thanx to my MUMMY who sponsored my clothes and everythin!! xiexie ni mummy! i bought like.. hah.. nvm..not as much as zhiyi can liao!! hahah.. mm.. thanx to my cousins who sponsored to my two shirts too!! ha. Mmm. mayb u guys wanna wave bye to my hair??!! ha.. im getting a haircut nex wk.. n im tempted to do sumthin drastic.. yea!!!

** OPEN HOUSE!!!!
i noe im slow... just let me acknowledge the people and events k??!! hahah..

1. the goodie bag and sumthin extra and ushering ppl!! *claps* so fun, esp in the identification of np ppl!!!(tt's our job) the team were like.. a bunch of buzzling bees.. and i reallie reallie enjoyed working if u ppl.. the list abit too long la.(joel, reanne, kaiying,dora, kangni,yufen,naz,maz,keith,atlantis,zhaoyuan,ng qi, chelsea, royston, shuann, serene(s),wenfang, zhaf ,zhikai(our fortune teller), emily, kelvin} haha. sorry if i forgot anyone.. surviving on hello panda was too gd an experience.. yea..

2. the FNP!! so so fun.. talked to the many many sec 4s from various sch, convincing them tt np ish da best.[oOps].. let's see if i can rmb their names (farhna, riza, jiunn, wei keong and loh khai!! and others.. ) wei keong and loh khai called me Auntie. haixx.. nvm.. it just seem to me that i made sum frens! haha.. and i saw the studiios in FVS!! SOOOOOOOooo cool. just so so cool. e lightings, e props, e control rms, e studio, e editing. WOw. hha.. but LSCT's still the best la.. (must defend for my faculty...)

3.Ppl from the other stations.. im sure u guys did a great job as well!! the facility tour, the no-clementi shuttle, the welcome booths, the charted buse ppl.. *claps* haha.. btw. teo xu sings reallie well.. y didn't he took part in SI?!! can win lor..oh anyw, just wanna say..
AMB RAWKS!!! *****muuuacccckkkss*****

4. MY class peepx.. so sad that i cant join in the fun wif u guys.. im sure u all had lotsa excitment and enjoyed the profession as well rite??! haha. mm.. Mr. Usher Wong. tt's funnie la!! haha.. and of course.. credits must be given to jon and shiliang!! they beared the heat and scent of dolly's n carrot's costume! *three cheers! and of course the rest of u! [zhiyi, zhengjie, yeehyan, ying2, e.chia, flavia(whu clarify ita for me!)] *cheers for the fun!! Ohhh.. thanx to e.chia too.. whom offered HELP to me regarding ita proj and the subission!! *ai si ni men le* yea..

5. the Gls!!! another org that i cant help out in! haix. But u guys did a GREAT job!! haha.. the alpha gel response was.. FaB!! haha.. really.. the o level ppl luv it! the milo ice-cream and the nitrogen soo da piah!! cool cool!! Gls rawk on yah? haha.. and to yichao( i doubt he reads ) .. Be careful leh!! dun anyhow breakdance and bang ur head! take care la. Did i touch your wound??!! sorry if i did ya? paiseh ;P

***[phew] lastly..my FRIDAY GANG!!!
hahah..just last week.. they set up a Jessie Movie Scholarship specially for me!! BUt we didnt use it la. haha.. how can i not love them??!! the Xmas pics are out too!! so funnie.. mm anwy.. im expecting a Jessie Fund coming up as well. hahah..OOh oh.. i suppose to..

COngRAts to AWWwweee for passing her probAs with flying colors!! [haha] n highest for maths test huh? 14/15 huh? haha.. ok la.. jiayou jiayou k?!
see!! i told u friday gang ppl getting smarter n smarter le lor(of course tt includes me as well)!! hhaha..

actuallie i still have a story to tell.. but nvm la.. next time..gg to slp soon.

lastly n most imptly..
I MISS AHJEK AND AHSO
sobz. after common test i'll go and visit them. must must must must.

FINALLY UPDAAATTTTEEEEDDD my blog. yea..

hello helloo

2005-01-26T01:02:00.000-08:00

HELLLLLOOOOO..

new skin here..

yea~~

No time

2005-01-24T16:51:00.000-08:00

sorrie ppl.
i have NO time to update at all!! haix.
mummy ish sick.gtg!! bye!!

Bz!

2005-01-18T19:55:00.000-08:00

mm.. why the hell am i doing here??!! Im soo supposed to do ita!! *Ooops. haiz.. OH is tmr, so that mean i have tonnes of things to do!! haha.. die die.
anyw.. i jus drop by to tell u ppl to..

TAKE LOTSA LOTSA CARE!

pls dun fall sick and dun feel sad k? things will jolly well be back on track ya? i'll always be there! Jiayou.

wif lots of luv!
Jessie;P

*rushes back to do ita le.

broken finger.

2005-01-17T23:44:00.000-08:00

hahah.. im soo sorrie ppl. i made u guys worried (i think).
today i send out two msges, saying that i broke my finger!! and they were like..!!!! haha.. sorrie la.. but it was genuinely PAINFUL!!! the window giap me!!!! i hate TT window. im serious.. anyw, in the end i was persuaded to see doc. mmm.. doc says only briuses!! haiz. now the finger looks retarded. sighx.
anyw, sumthin brought upon my attention. i jus realise my forte. PISSING PPL OFF. ppl trust me leh. i Reallie dun mean it.. reallie! *innocence

Declaration : I LOVE AW

hahhaha.. aw's the best! at least for today la.. well.. i pestered her to see doc wif me :P and she sacrifice her time for maths tutorial and her test for me.. and stil ask me to go Bintan wif her this sat!! haha.. tis Crazy women.

mmm.. reflection of the day:
wellwelll.. there's loads of perspectives to see a thing, ppl!! so dun be too affected by wad others say.. sumtimes it's best if one jus get away for a short while, think twice bout wad was said or told, look at it at a diff way and you wldn't take it as hard as ever! hahha..
stoopid things always happens ard us. it's natural isnt it?
But of course, it's easy for me to say now.. wait til i get pissed! hah.. talk bout perspectives!!!

Take care my beloved ones.. esp to phyllis ya?!
**muuacccckksss. ;P

No time.

2005-01-16T08:54:00.000-08:00

[sighz]
*tsk tsk

-still extremely clinging. EEEEeewwW (giant koala bear)
-having sum stoopid headache
-i found my brothe gambling, and i dunnoe wad to do
-sick of scolding him cox i think he ought to noe wad's correct and wad's wrong.
-how can i stop ppl from dreaming of winning 4D??
-$50 wasted on 4D = 25 plates of chicken rice!!!
-need to save up sum money for CNY.
-I NEED TO BE MORE FOCUSE ON MY STUDIES.
-Itp test tmr.
-OH in 3 days.
-misses loads of ppl. (haiz, why am i doing this all the time? *BiSh )
-must complain to woodgrove sec tmr. MUST...
-the ger frm HCJC who lead against the pillar and was frowning away during flag day shld try to earn cip hrs in a different way. sighx

ya that's all, i hope...
nitez.

BOo~~

2005-01-15T02:30:00.000-08:00

Yea~~ Im FINALLY back. im sorry for abandoning my blog.I had a HECTIC AND BUSY week!!wellwell where shld i begin wif.. hahaha..

OK! i'll first start with an explanation on y i posted tt thing on wed.( i am apologetic for polluting my poor blog k..) Mmm.. let's just say i was not being composed enough and was too hot-headed then alrite? =P But how wld u react when ur fellow project grp member seem to be spouting vulgarities at u, when all u did was the correct thing? Wad wld u do when this particular grp memeber jus wldnt like to co-operate wif u? Being intellectually-inclined is one thing, while being a full-time irritant is another. These ppl shld really know when they are pushing their luck too far.

Arrogance and egotism will NOt bring you far.

But well.. upon reflectiion, im still glad to work wif ppl like them!! y? becox i believe one's got to work wif all kinds of ppl anwy, isnt it? it's a good experience everytime, becox u get to learn and to cope, with the different kinda situations.So the next time, you wont fumble as much =P haha.. it's like.. Wld u know wad is happiness when u all encounted was happiness? then being happy is meaningless. OH.. me and my logic agn. [Oops]

Ok!! ha.. now u noe. IM SUPER NAGGY!! gonna becum ahmah soon. wellwell..alrite shall talk bout the week now!!haha. starting from today!!

Friday's theme - Lesbianism
wellwell..Y this theme? haha..cox i was super clinging to ALOT of ppl today. im sorrie to all my victims. (mainly zhiyi, dora, aw, yy and quek) i dunnoe wad's wif me today!! Must be the stoopid dunnoe-which hormones acting up agn =P Went to KAP to eat breakfast wif zhiyi!! yea~~ super looooooooonnnngg nv eat macs brakfast alrdy. im so blessed! hah.. tended the D&D booth b4 we went for lecture!! had a briefing on the IS modules!!mmm..haix. Then i went to meet the friday gang!! yea~~ btw, I WANNA BOX THE PERSON WHO UNCOVER PHYLLIS'S LIE!! when ppl say got family outing means got family outing la(erm..or sumthin as important!!)ha. train summore la EEWEN!!! later ur right arm break off then u noe! As usual, we did lotsa stoopid things (shall not review too much!!)n talked n talked n talked agn..and to my horror, i jus found out tt

Sarah is doing a double degree (law + psychology = criminalogy) in Melbourne University this feb.

Arghhhh!!! Y do ppl nowadays wants to accelerate their life so rapidly?? when she finishes U, it's will be ard the same time when i graduate from poly. This is crazy.. will i appear stoopid in front of her by then? haix.WEALTHY PPL. anyw decided to summarise sumthin...

Sarah - melbourne University
Murshildha - sumwhere in australia this june
Steph - gg back to indo
Lisa - Trinity (australia agn)
Jingxian - Canada
Rachel - presently stil in Clements, texas (gg to sum other college)
Pauline - either Canada or US (Bleahz~)

Ok mayb thats all, i hope, seriously.. cant bear to see anymore ppl gg overseas.. it's pretty saddening and depressing. Dun exactly like the idea of lotsa ppl crying at the airport, hugging this one person leaving and wondering when's the nex time you'll see her agn. [sighz]

Oooops. Gtg and slp!! tmr got amb duty!! die die.. mm.. will update u more.. as usual i've digress too much.. nites!!!

2005-01-10T09:18:00.000-08:00

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Clinque day...

2005-01-08T03:53:00.000-08:00

HEY!! haha.. jus wanna congrats the ppl that receieve tt prize thingy today!! mainly to zhiyi, flavia, yingying, ron, junwei, denise and kelvin! haha.. LOok.. i'll now try to aim k! so wait for me ah! anyw.. i feel happie for u ppl!

Wellwell was in sch since morning 930am.. wanted to do the science proj but kept on getting stuck.. nvm.. ill try to do my part tmr! and tmr will be yet another looong day.. BOO~~ briefing on OH in the morning then must do cats.. OH DEAR..

haha.. the best thing that happened to me in the week.. finally met up wif my friday peepx.. too bad phyllis wasnt there cox of her bowling training.. [ sumonne help me slap the coach or the prez can??!! training on friday??!! stoopid pig. ] Actuallie, seriously.. we did nuthin much.. wanted to catch The Phamtom of the opera.. but din.. hhaah.. anyw, yunying took out her SA tie jus now and i started calling her ms ITE Clementi.. then she said " Later i get my jie mei to whack you arh!!" in the ah lian manner... THEN me, aw, sylv jus got stunned.. and we BURST out laughing like sum stoopid airheads in the middle of TAKA!!!! hahah.. it's sooo funnie cox.. there's no way for ms nerd to becum ahlian!!! NO way!!! hahah.. try next life la yunying!!! in the end we jus talk n talk n talk n talk. Change the venues frm Orchard lib to macs then to borders then to orange julius.. haaha.. took the last train!! so lucky..... phew~

My Monologue

SERIOUSLY!!!!! wad'll happen to me if they wont ard??!! i cant imagine.. wellwell.. i noe that there are certain frens that u can always hold on to w/o constantly catching up wif them, and u noe that they will always be welcoming.. BUt for me.. some frens are beyond frens.. they are part of my life. That's y these ppl keep popping out in my head.. making me missing them all the time. I dunnoe how shld i describe this.. it's more like.. those brotherhood u find in LOTR.. haha.. in this case it's sisterhood then. ha.

Listening to: Alicia keys - if i aint gotten u.

am i independent? i dunno. Sumtimes yes and sumtimes no. Wellwell, i always believed that i have a split-personailty. A strong and a weak. and I bet everyone has one too. Just that, mine has totally distinctive differences. Which is super scary bcoz sumtimes i cant even recognise who i am. who i ought to be and who i wanna be.

That is y there's a problem wif me.. i have a problem of NOT being able to move on. The problem of clinging on sumthin or sum stuff too tightly, refusing to let go everytime. I noe tt sum part of myself desires for changes, for improvements, for a brand new me.. BUt the other me jus wants to remian as who i always am.

i dunnoe wad i want.

Ohhh.... just in case there's another tsunami or anythin .. i just wanna tell all the people out there
tt I LOVE YOU GUYS. Thanx for being part of my ever impt and beautiful life. *muacckkss*

The Bus

2005-01-07T02:12:00.000-08:00

Phyllis phyllis phyllis!!!
ok. Blogged bout phyllis alrdy.
Next..

nuthin much happened today, since it's IS day. Basically jus went to sch and rotted and forced myself not to slp in Cats and Waa.. i suceeeded! then went to have lunch wif my aunt at c2.. nearly puked my stomach out! It seem like salt is FREE for the mixed vege rice.. think i only ate like 30cents of the 2 bucks worth plate! which was the rice.

Declared: Boycotting c2!

THE BUS
154 - Ohhh.. On the way to sch.. saw this mother carrying this super cute boy toddler thru the bus window. Reminds me of my dearly missed nephew.. DARREN!!!! PING PING GU GU MISSED YOU!! mmm.. babies are the best! well. at least they dun hav to think sooo much! they are like ever so innocent and pure.. =P

157 - and on my way home... i slept so soundly thru my stop and finally arrived at the bus interchange!! and luckily there was this guy who was kind enough to wake me up. A plus point: he's quite handsome, and he owns a charming smile. well.. guess i'll jus keep oversleeping on 157 then. Ooops.

sumtimes i wonder whom am i.

2005-01-06T01:18:00.000-08:00

hello to all.. im back!
First of all, special thanks to Flavia!! for helping out in the tagboard thingy!! Thanx ya!

WARNING: Long Entry Ahead.

Ok back to me.. well well... rite now im feeling so extremely tired and worn out, ran campus run during GL training.. Im proud of myself man! i noe most ppl will be like super surprise to hear this from me.. cox i kinda like it!! hah.. wish it was longer! mm.. training today was abit messy, seem to me like a fish market! ha.. we were.. shouting at the top of our voices.. "FIFTY CENTS!!!!! TEN CENTS!!!" hahah.. anyway, it's quite fun la.

Boo~~ cant help out in the GL stalls during OH cox of Ambassadors!Nvm.. guess i can at least help out in the making of our stock!! *winks* mmm.. i can almost forsee myself.. camping in e convention centre for whole three days, wearing the mask of smiles and hospitality yet agn. Haix. nvm. IT'S A JOB. and i love my job. =P

Hmmmmp.. today i had role play in cell bio.. wellwell.. i think we've done best. N im proud of my grp, whether or not they were prepared, cox i believed tt everyone has put in their best effort.
For example, guobin!! hah.. look.. it's really difficult to gather and to organise ur thots, esp at the last min.. and.. he conveyed his stand really well throughout! Furthermore, who wld hav thought tt there'll be so many ppl bombarding u wif tonnes of qns??!! *BOMBS* and rebutting is SOOOO much of thinking on ur feet, and it hAd to be relevant and factual. WOW.. That's y im so proud of U guys. *muax*
Did Yeehyan mentioned that i was gonna cry??!!( my role as a mother of a dead child) haha. maybe actuallie.. if.. i've memorise my script better. But i really felt like crying after my presentation.. i can sensed my tears rolling ard my eyes while talking to zhiyi. Luckily, i forced them back.. hah..

Of course, i believe aw, yy n slyv will rmb that fateful day when i weeped pitifully in tt 2c1 classrm. I dunno wad's wif my role playing and my WELL-developed tear glands.

Excel test was quite a disappointment. I din noe wad was i doing at all!! i mean for the chart thingy.. and had to hand up real late. Such a Shame! haix.

anyw, met Li Ching in sch today! ha.. she bought me this pinkish hellokitty thingy from Japan! mmm.. NOt exactly my type of thing.. but thanx :P haha.. updated me bout her recent stuff.. Her trip to Jap din turn out tt well!! firstly, there wasnt a shopping itinary! and then tt tour guide of hers wasnt speaking of a language tt she understands. When she came back she had a eye infection, and was hospitalize for 6 days. And last sunday she met wif a car accident and it's in the garage now. Talking bout being suay~~

OHhhhh.. sumthin jus crossed my mind.. IM MISSING FRIDAY GANG.
i totallly hate it when sumone's face poped out in my mind. Irritating. anyw...

***Go Aw!!!! Jiayou for your exams thingy!!! i wish im be there providing u wif the formulas!***

hahah. i noe im like how slow. But.. Jiayou Jiayou!! *waves pom-pom*(btw, i think it ends today. Ooops)MMmmm.. actuallie a lot things went thru my mind these few days. but.. im toooo slppy to type out le.. Gonna faint real soon. next time i'll tell u more!!!

nites!

Muaaaccckssss

2005-01-02T03:14:00.000-08:00

hello ppl.. testing!

new year mah! so i thou of doing sumthin for myself..
see if this works cox....

im computer illiterated!!

.....HAPPY NEW YEAR......
*muax*

**winks*

*jesSIe*

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Clinque day...

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